Mizuko Kuyo: The Loss of a "Water Baby"

In Japan, there is a way to honor and acknowledge the loss experienced through miscarriage and babies born still. "Mizuko Kuyo" literally means, "water" and "baby," and it represents the spirit of a child who died inutero, “beings who float in a watery world awaiting birth.”  

Statues represent children that never were. The statue is called a "Jizo." Initially the family writes the baby's name on the Jizo, as well as the date of the loss. They may also include a personal message to the baby. If there are ultrasound pictures, one might be left with the Jizo. The ceremony is performed by a Buddhist Monk, who essentially reads a scripture-like prayer for the baby. Families may come and add caps or bibs of red, pinwheels or other small toys and food offerings. 

Mizuko Kuyo has no direct English translation. I would go even further to say, English-language cultures (and many other cultures) have no direct translation in ceremony, emotional comfort and release, and familial acknowledgement of this loss. 

As a doula, I have seen women and families experience miscarriage and babies born still. While every mother feels her experience differently, she often does feel it deeply. Sometimes these are family mournings, when the baby is closer to birth or gestational maturity. With the majority of miscarriages occurring before 12 weeks of pregnancy, more often this loss is a private ordeal. Many mothers or couples haven't shared the news of their pregnancy yet; the support which might be extended by their community is missing, and the mother, especially, floats through the loss feeling alone with her secret pain.

I don't know why our culture is so bad at this type of loss (we aren't good with loss in general). The point of Mizuko Kuyo is to recognize the passing of a "baby before birth." One Buddhist Monk notes, it doesn't have to be an official religious ceremony, and anyone can have their own Mizuko Kuyo -- even years after their loss. One woman, searching for a way to peace after her miscarriage, asked her husband to participate in Mizuko Kuyo with her. She shares: 

"I gathered a few things. The pregnancy test – it symbolized the happiness my husband and I shared when we learned of our pregnancy. A family picture. I also wrote a note that simply said,

'My Tiny Water Baby,
We loved you from the first idea of you. You were created in love and that love will always be. We let you go and hope there will be a time when it is right for us to be together. Love, Mom and Dad.'

We placed the items in a small box and buried it. The two of us stood together in a sweet, green corner of our yard and offered a few words of hope. My husband shared his hope for peace for all of us. I simply said a prayer. That was the start of healing -- acknowledging the life that once grew inside me. I was able to give myself permission to grieve, and that was my path to healing."

This post has been inspired by a dear friend dealing with her own loss tonight. I am sorry. Love and light to all who have experienced this pain. 

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